wow! my life's so exciting! cant believe tt i used to crave for dis kinda super hectic lifestyle but now tt u get to run here and there and wonder how many things u can strike off ur to-do list den u appreciate how fun it is to actually stone at home and sleep. yeah sleep. ahahah. ydsp is fun but seriously its a waste of time laaaaa. ahahah not tt im complaining cos of the 300 bucks budden rite all of us are so packed tt we cant even organise a single lousy trip to lousy pulau ubin. i mean when on earth have u ever heard tt to even find a day when everyone can go off to pulau ubin tgter to soak in the mud and let mozzies bite us is so damn difficult tt u have to delay the whole trip by abt 1 mth. yeah as in wait 1 mth den finally u hit on a date tt can go one. and incidentally by the time we can go rite, the report submission oso due liao. shufu. ahahaha. and to tink tt i havent even started on my lun wen. grrrrrr. ahahahaha lol mood swing la. BUT THERES SO MUCH TO DO LA. JUST FINISHED THE STEWARTON SHIT PPT. PLS AH WE RLY GIVE A DAMN ABT SCOTLAND"S POLITICS AH. alalllaaaaa and my buddy is a guy some more. ahaha not tt im despo la, budden sengyeow got me all jealous when he say dj's buddy whos some girl who owns 2 horses and a super big hse is so n2 in emailing him just to tell him tt dey r buddies. so shuang rite to have a super n2 buddy. ahahaha. my buddy better be gd. still no news abt wysc. i tink im kinda giving up on it liao. lol. can tell in the frequency tt i go on isc nowadays. ahiz so many things screw up u start losing confidence in urself

Hm. I hate blogging cos u dunno how much to blog and den tinking abt how much to blog is a real pain in the neck cos it makes u feel like u r scamming the world around u by being insincere and hiding the true urself. and u knoe tt im alwaes true to myself. like i do watever i do. and i dun give a heck even if it were to hurt other ppl feelings. like erm oh no standing up for my own rights to my parents over significabt issues? ahaha no laaaa. but i oso dun tend to want to hurt ppl. as in i try to give in wheneevr possible laaaaaaaaa. ahahaha. hmmm... how much have i achieve for dis yr ah. everything seems to have gone past in a blur. was laffing to myself over how JOHN SCAMMED ME TT DIANE WANTED TO MEET ME IN CANTEEN and HOW I WAS DUMB ENUFF TO BELIEVE. and how yx made me cry in STJ. and how we had fun hosting the china buddies and watching sunshine. or watching spiderman 3 (oso the last movie tt i have watched :( sad no life me) with yx while ponning ct. ahahaha. i tink theres dis streak of rebelliousness within me tt is dying to get expressed. which prolly explains whyy i derive so much pleasure screwing up all the tuitions tt i have been to (trust me screwing up jiang lao shi wasnt the worst thing tt i have done ok, wad i did at my chinese essay tuition in primary 4-5 was much much worse, like throwing slippers in cls. and when i was in pri 3 i rmbred i bully dis girl who bullied me (dun ask me wad she did but i was quite pissed) until she cry. ahahah so much for revenge rite, the bully abit zai den in the end kena victimised by the victim. lol. and in case u dunno i like typing in chunks like dis. ahaha.but den rite i have oso observed tt dis streak onli comes out when i feel comfortable laaa. like with the reach cambridge ppl all the foolishness seems to come out of me so naturally. most prolly cos got jinx there laaaa. LIKE PLS JUMP AND TRY TO TOUCH THE CEILING EVERY 3 M TT WE WALK ALONG THE CORRIDOR AH. ahahaha. so farny! ahaha. acting dumb can be v fun u knoe. #1: its the perfect excuse when u rly screw up, cos ppl tink u just fooling around and trying to perfect ur image (like the lt3 incident which i confess was real) and den #2 its so fun just to make ppl tink tt dey got u when actually u got dem! aahaha dunno how to explain but its just i like making ppl, even if at the expense of myself, so when dey laff den i oso feel v happy lor. and #3 it lets down ppl's guard, so dey bcome less wary and more open to u laaa! and when ppl r more open theres less suspicion around so everyones happier laaaa! ahahaha

whyy issit tt everytime im so free tt i try blogging i must first waste an additional 5 min guessing wad my password and username i used... ahahaha so super forgetful alwaes, i wish i cld rmbr things better.

well i have resolved to work harder! yay! so todae when i woke up i told myself i shall piah. after slacking nonstop for one whole mth in bitter denial. ha. budden later i on the com and started lexpert until 10 and den after tt i nothing better to do so go slp. so in the end abit productive. haiz. ahahah.

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MWAHAHAHA. things have been gg frm bad to worse. ugh. i cant seem to delete the previous blog which is like super childish laa. LOLs. everything in my life seems to screw up and well it seems as doh onli colorgenics rly understands how i feel, which makes it even weirder. Stm abt being at the end of ur tether, and how u r swarmed with so much adversity tt like the "proverbial ostrich" u just wanna dig ur head in the sand and DAO everything. And dey said stm abt me pursuing trivialities instd. HMPH. ARE DEY TRYING TO IMPLY SCRABBLE IS A TRIVIALITY! JI DAN. SHLD JUST GO SUE PAUL GOLDIN LAAA.

well it seems as doh im becoming immune to setbacks liao. wads tt word ah. yeah STOIC. hm. like u kena whacked so v many times until the sensory neurone cant sense anything liao. (NO ITS NOT MEANT TO BE FUNNY SO DUN DOTZ OR ERPZ ME) so after not qualifying for wysc i tink i just zibei-ed for a while den like resigned to fate liao. I KNEW DIS WAS COMING LIAO LAAA. AS IN MY LIFES SO SCREWED UP I DUN EVEN DOUBT TT TOMOLO IS THE END OF THE WORLD (which is kinda great since den dunnid go OP).

BUT GETTING RESIGNED TO IT DOESNT MEAN I DUN WANT TO GO OK. AND THK GH FOR RLY MAKING ME HAPPY (despo ppl cling on to any vestige of hope left no matter how slim) AND GG BACK TO SCRABBLE OR NOT I TINK MOZ PROB I WILL JUST DAO SCRABBLE UNTIL 08 EOY. LOL. I DID SAY JGCC WILL BE MY FINALE. BUT WELL. HAIZ. DUN WANT TO TOK ABT IT LIAO LA.

nonetheless looking back so much things have changed. still rmbr earlier dis yr during mill cup when lokelf was asking me to help her count tiles in the staff rm. she was like giving me pep tok and she was saying NEXT TIME IF U EVER BCOME LIKE ONE OF DEM DUN EVER BCOME A ROBOT like hubert ahahhaaa oh no im backstabbing anyone here but rly lor she refering to u cos she added some rather vivid descriptions of u. LIFE"S MORE DEN SCRABBLE. i rmbr i was like uh i will nvr be a master. i will nvr become one of dem. and look where im now, a full-fledged master (lol pls dun point out tt my rtg is still below 1600). 2 yrs ago in sec 3 when we went to the stupid boarding sch to squat i play scrabble every nite with gh rite, play for the whole mth i rmbr i NEARLY won him only once. i rmbred i happily missed a bingo as i couldnt find a spot to play when actually there was a nice bingo lane waiting for me, PREZ hooking REZ. JI DAN rite. TTS LIKE SO NOOB LAAA. Play for like 2 games every nite for 1 mth (tts nearly 60 games) and won him not once. tts a disgrace. and the statistic ddidn improve when we went to beijing, last yr i helping him train for wysc, i was like SUPER DUPER happy tt i finally won him AFTER LIKE WAD 9999999999 games. JI DAN LA. SSSS?? and he got stuck with the Q. IF I DUN WIN NOW I CAN GO JUMP LA. i rmbr the first ever tourney, held at VJC, nats 04 when i was in div e, i look at the masters board and WOW first move PLS SEAFRONT FOR 80 POINTS AH. i was like OMG one day i want to be like dem. and now finally i am. SO WHY M I COMPLAINING LAAAAA TT I LOSE ALL MY GAMES LOLS.

WELL AND OMG SOME LAME BUGGERS and pigs and fungi and viruses ACTUALLY DO VISIT AND TAG ON MY LAME AND STUPID BLOG! but tt was the other one. HAHAHAH!!!! LOL IF U READING DIS RITE NOW GO SLAP URSELF AND TELL URSELF TT I JUST WASTED 5 MINS OF MY OWN PRECIOUS TIME!!!!! HEEHEE.

wow tts a pretty long post. ahahahaa sry for wasting ur time. dun tink anyone understands my rantings doh.

tot i might just go back to blogging seeing that the amt of space u have 4 ur msn nick each time is so damn limited